Feb 9,10 & 11

What an absolute disaster...this Friday, Saturday and Sunday has been nothing but a free for all!!! I am really disappointed with myself - it's unbelievable how fast the fat bloated feeling comes back. I need to re-dedicate myself and that's what I am going to do. I am not going to the Arnold looking like a little fat piggy! I want to be proud of my body and though I know I can't have the perfect body like I want by the time the Arnold rolls around I can sure be on the way. Back on my old fat burner now which makes me happy and am going to stick to my workouts. I've been adding some walking in the evenings to keep myself going. Things in motion tend to stay in motion so that's going to be my battle cry! No more sitting on the couch doing nothing - if I am watching TV I'll be doing leg lifts or abs...I am sick and tired. I want to fit back into my old clothes and feel proud. I am going to do it and I am going to prove to myself that I can do it. I want Dan to feel like he has a super model on his arm and I want my friends to look at me and hate me for being so lean - I've done it before and damn it I am going to do it again.

Day 37 Feb 7

22 days until the Arnold...gotta keep going - gotta stay focused! Did 8 minute abs this morning and hit the treadmill (walking) for 12-15 minutes. Doing my leg workout today at the gym - need to stay true. Gotta continue to watch my portion sizes. Going back to my old fat burner...this new one apparently isn't geared for me as it really hasn't seemed to help me. Been trying to make sure that I am drinking lots of water and eating small meals.

Day 36 Feb 6

25 days until the Arnold expo...Not doing too badly...got on the treadmill this morning for 15 mintues...did the walking with incline. Going to hit the cardio hard at the gym and hopefully get back on the treadmill this morning. Contra-band to list... 1/4 cream filled donut (it was nasty). Got to keep the Arnold in mind...I could really be looking good so I've got to stay focussed!!! No free day - I've got everything I need to keep my taste buds happy and my brain is just going to have to get over it! A lot of things I want to get accomplished whirling in my brain...beat this challenge, get my horse going for the shows, figure out how to get out of debt etc etc. I'm going to do these things - I am going to do it!!! Didn't get on the treadmill tonight but will try in the morning...getting lots of snow!

Day 35 Feb 5

Got my abs done this morning. Going to hit upper body at the gym and the treadmill when I get home. I've already dropped off the nutrition wagon with that 1/2 donut I ate but I've got to work it off. I really need to stay focused there are a lot of thing swirling around but I've got to remember that the end is near. I am no where near my goals and that is unacceptable to me....I need to reach my goals so I don't let myself down. Need to watch my portion sizes and be true to my workouts that I will reach those goals and be happy with myself...I really want to do this and I've got to get it in my mind to suceed!

Hit the gym and did the upper body workout...back pulldown, tri cep machine, shoulder machine, chest press and 5 minute warm up on EFX machine. I felt good after doing it.

I am going to start listing my contra-band here so I can see what I am really destroying my challenge goals with...perhaps this will keep me away from the contra-band.
Chocolate iced long john donut...that is just completely unacceptable.

Day 34 Feb 4

Today was not supposed to be free day - I ran on the treadmill this morning and ate a good breakfast. I had a few drinks today and that wasn't good...I've really got to get a handle on this. I keep saying this but I've really got to stick to it. I am going to nix free day food except for my one free day drink. I want to look good for the Arnold Expo - I want to get that body and I am running out of time. I don't want to let myself down but I can't continue to have 2-3 free days a week. I've got to keep staying true to my workouts and eating well. Dan is looking awesome so I've got to start looking awesome too!! The Arnold isn't too far away - keep focused!!! I really want to do this...I want to complete this challenge.

Day 33 Feb 2

Got my abs done this morning though the puppies kept getting the way a bit. Hitting upper body at the gym today and going to stay true to my nutrition plan. Really need to eat the way I did yesterday...no extra snacks no extra bites. I'm a little lighter already just need to stay after it. I didn't get my upper body workout done but got on the treadmill this evening and did 30 minutes.

Day 32 Feb 1

Started today out right! Got on the treadmill for 10-12 minutes burned 150 calories. Doing cardio at the gym today and packed small portions for nutrition today. I am going to get down to 130 if it kills me - I really want to fit in those Harley jeans...I've got to do it for me. I've got to beat this challenge and see it to the end. Dan is a big help and I wish I had him to workout with me everyday - he's great inspiration! No wonder he is rock solid! At the gym I tried to hit it hard today - 5 minutes on the EFX Ellipical, 10 minutes on the treadmill and 10 minutes on the exercise bike. I want to do more jogging when I get home this evening too! I did another 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight - feels good! I really want to get toned...I've got to skip the free day on Saturday since it pretty much occurred on Tuesday. A few drinks perhaps but no bad food - I just can't do it anymore. I've got to do this so I can feel good about myself - I need to give 100%!!! I am going to do it!

Day 31 Jan 31

Well yesterday was a disaster and here I sit today weighing pretty much what I did when I started this challenge. I am apparently not paying attention to my portion sizes and the fat burner I am using isn't for me. I worked out with Dan this morning and trained legs - I tried to do my best - lunges, outside & inside thighs and calf raises with 8 total minutes on the ellipical machine. I also made an effort today to cut my calories and portion sizes - 3/4 cup bran flakes, 1/4 protein bar and few bites of bagel with roast beef and provolone cheese, Ham & cheese sandwich on wheat bun, 3/4 cup of bran flakes and boiled egg, tortilla pizza and 3/4 cup bran flakes. I hope this will help!! I really want to get down and get lean and healthy!! I need to really apply myself!!!

Day 30 Jan 30

We've reached 30 days in the plan! I haven't gotten the results that I really want but I realize that I really haven't tried either - I need to focus and remember the big picture not just today! Didn't get out of bed to do 10 mins on the treadmill so I'll have to do that tonight when I get home. What to hit the cardio hard at the gym today and stay true to my nutrition plan! I absolutely didn't stay true to my nutrition - Dan and I hit Roosters for lunch and I'll have a drink with him when I get home. I will be good on Saturday to make up for it. I am disappointed with my effort so far. I've got 8 weeks to make up for it...I need to buckle down to get to that level of fitness that I'd like to attain. Cardio - 20 minutes on the treadmill and another 10 tomorrow morning. I've got to really get my head in this game.

Day 29 Jan 29

Last Friday was really looking good and then Free Day happened! I have trouble getting back in gear on Sunday and today wasn't much better. I really feel like I should be farther along with my goals at this point in the game but then again I am not a very patient person. I got out of bed this morning and did my abs - Yeah! Hit the gym and trained legs, squats (heavy) with the Smith press, inside thighs, outside thighs, a few calf raises and ended with 5 mins on the treadmill. Nutrition wasn't too bad today though I will say the portion sizes get me everytime! I really need to work on those. I can see some results in my legs - I've lost a lot of bloat around my hips and thighs but I want more! That's why I will stay committed to the challenge!!

Day 26 Jan 26

Very tired this morning but got my 8 minute abs done. Hitting the gym for upper body at noon...

Hit the gym today!! Upper body got quite the workout!! 5 minute warm up, tri cep pull downs, lat pull downs, chest press and shoulder raises. I increased weights and really tried!! I was happy about my workout and I hope I lose even more next week!

Good day - tried to stick to my nutrition plan as best as I could - the rum and pineapple found it's way into my supper plans but I needed to end the week and the emotional stress too.

Next week is a new week and one step closer to conquering my goals!

Day 25 Jan 25

Today - got cardio done in the morning and then walked for 10-15 minutes in the evening. Had John's funeral today and that was hard but I was happy he didn't have to suffer anymore. Tried to eat well though I did a tribute for John and had a cookie (it was really good)! Feeling much better physically - clothes are fitting much better. Everyone at the funeral told me how good I looked and that really helped me - more motivation!! Awesome!!! I can move forward now and know that I am making progress - I'm going to make it to the end!!! We are going to beat this challenge!!! C'mon $20,000!!! Ha,ha,ha!

Day 24 Jan 24

Today was a good day - got cardio done since I didn't make it to the gym (John's showing). Proud of myself for coming home and getting it done though! Ate pretty good today too. I am starting to drop some weight so I am getting my motivation back! Dan is doing an excellent job and I have really relied on him for the past couple of weeks! Yoohoo - progress!!

Day 24 Jan24

I tell ya...this challenge is NOT going my way...I can't seem to get my butt in gear. I am going to do cardio when we get home from the funeral home tonight since I won't be able to do upper body - going to hit the treadmill tomorrow too for my real cardio day - I'll be sure to do upper body on Friday - I'll just have to skip the double leg workout this week. Food is my biggest downfall though - I have had my oatmeal and an egg, my cottage cheese and a WHOLE english muffin with spray butter and reduced fat peanut butter...this is just ridiculous. I really have got to find a way to size down my portion sizes. I am not really craving anything today just bored and that makes me eat...ridiculous. I really want to be down into my clothes and have them fitting correctly. This is week 4 and that should already be happening. I am not sure what else to do other than just stop eating (of course stop eating trash) and workout until I fall over. I am going to up the intensity of my workouts and see what happens. I am going to have to get motivated - I want to really finish this thing and win!!! Motivation, THINGS IN MOTION TEND TO STAY IN MOTION...