Feb 9,10 & 11

What an absolute disaster...this Friday, Saturday and Sunday has been nothing but a free for all!!! I am really disappointed with myself - it's unbelievable how fast the fat bloated feeling comes back. I need to re-dedicate myself and that's what I am going to do. I am not going to the Arnold looking like a little fat piggy! I want to be proud of my body and though I know I can't have the perfect body like I want by the time the Arnold rolls around I can sure be on the way. Back on my old fat burner now which makes me happy and am going to stick to my workouts. I've been adding some walking in the evenings to keep myself going. Things in motion tend to stay in motion so that's going to be my battle cry! No more sitting on the couch doing nothing - if I am watching TV I'll be doing leg lifts or abs...I am sick and tired. I want to fit back into my old clothes and feel proud. I am going to do it and I am going to prove to myself that I can do it. I want Dan to feel like he has a super model on his arm and I want my friends to look at me and hate me for being so lean - I've done it before and damn it I am going to do it again.