Feb 9,10 & 11

What an absolute disaster...this Friday, Saturday and Sunday has been nothing but a free for all!!! I am really disappointed with myself - it's unbelievable how fast the fat bloated feeling comes back. I need to re-dedicate myself and that's what I am going to do. I am not going to the Arnold looking like a little fat piggy! I want to be proud of my body and though I know I can't have the perfect body like I want by the time the Arnold rolls around I can sure be on the way. Back on my old fat burner now which makes me happy and am going to stick to my workouts. I've been adding some walking in the evenings to keep myself going. Things in motion tend to stay in motion so that's going to be my battle cry! No more sitting on the couch doing nothing - if I am watching TV I'll be doing leg lifts or abs...I am sick and tired. I want to fit back into my old clothes and feel proud. I am going to do it and I am going to prove to myself that I can do it. I want Dan to feel like he has a super model on his arm and I want my friends to look at me and hate me for being so lean - I've done it before and damn it I am going to do it again.

Day 37 Feb 7

22 days until the Arnold...gotta keep going - gotta stay focused! Did 8 minute abs this morning and hit the treadmill (walking) for 12-15 minutes. Doing my leg workout today at the gym - need to stay true. Gotta continue to watch my portion sizes. Going back to my old fat burner...this new one apparently isn't geared for me as it really hasn't seemed to help me. Been trying to make sure that I am drinking lots of water and eating small meals.

Day 36 Feb 6

25 days until the Arnold expo...Not doing too badly...got on the treadmill this morning for 15 mintues...did the walking with incline. Going to hit the cardio hard at the gym and hopefully get back on the treadmill this morning. Contra-band to list... 1/4 cream filled donut (it was nasty). Got to keep the Arnold in mind...I could really be looking good so I've got to stay focussed!!! No free day - I've got everything I need to keep my taste buds happy and my brain is just going to have to get over it! A lot of things I want to get accomplished whirling in my brain...beat this challenge, get my horse going for the shows, figure out how to get out of debt etc etc. I'm going to do these things - I am going to do it!!! Didn't get on the treadmill tonight but will try in the morning...getting lots of snow!

Day 35 Feb 5

Got my abs done this morning. Going to hit upper body at the gym and the treadmill when I get home. I've already dropped off the nutrition wagon with that 1/2 donut I ate but I've got to work it off. I really need to stay focused there are a lot of thing swirling around but I've got to remember that the end is near. I am no where near my goals and that is unacceptable to me....I need to reach my goals so I don't let myself down. Need to watch my portion sizes and be true to my workouts that I will reach those goals and be happy with myself...I really want to do this and I've got to get it in my mind to suceed!

Hit the gym and did the upper body workout...back pulldown, tri cep machine, shoulder machine, chest press and 5 minute warm up on EFX machine. I felt good after doing it.

I am going to start listing my contra-band here so I can see what I am really destroying my challenge goals with...perhaps this will keep me away from the contra-band.
Chocolate iced long john donut...that is just completely unacceptable.

Day 34 Feb 4

Today was not supposed to be free day - I ran on the treadmill this morning and ate a good breakfast. I had a few drinks today and that wasn't good...I've really got to get a handle on this. I keep saying this but I've really got to stick to it. I am going to nix free day food except for my one free day drink. I want to look good for the Arnold Expo - I want to get that body and I am running out of time. I don't want to let myself down but I can't continue to have 2-3 free days a week. I've got to keep staying true to my workouts and eating well. Dan is looking awesome so I've got to start looking awesome too!! The Arnold isn't too far away - keep focused!!! I really want to do this...I want to complete this challenge.

Day 33 Feb 2

Got my abs done this morning though the puppies kept getting the way a bit. Hitting upper body at the gym today and going to stay true to my nutrition plan. Really need to eat the way I did yesterday...no extra snacks no extra bites. I'm a little lighter already just need to stay after it. I didn't get my upper body workout done but got on the treadmill this evening and did 30 minutes.

Day 32 Feb 1

Started today out right! Got on the treadmill for 10-12 minutes burned 150 calories. Doing cardio at the gym today and packed small portions for nutrition today. I am going to get down to 130 if it kills me - I really want to fit in those Harley jeans...I've got to do it for me. I've got to beat this challenge and see it to the end. Dan is a big help and I wish I had him to workout with me everyday - he's great inspiration! No wonder he is rock solid! At the gym I tried to hit it hard today - 5 minutes on the EFX Ellipical, 10 minutes on the treadmill and 10 minutes on the exercise bike. I want to do more jogging when I get home this evening too! I did another 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight - feels good! I really want to get toned...I've got to skip the free day on Saturday since it pretty much occurred on Tuesday. A few drinks perhaps but no bad food - I just can't do it anymore. I've got to do this so I can feel good about myself - I need to give 100%!!! I am going to do it!