I am starting to panick just a little...my "fat" clothes are starting to fit and that's a very bad sign. I know I am starting the challenge next Tuesday but it almost doesn't seem soon enough! I really hope all of this fat comes off quickly - I know some of it will take time but I really want to have respect for myself and see myself in a different way. I need to just get things ready to start the challenge and focus on completing it...not getting upset with the way I look right now - that is all about to change. It really helps that Dan is going to committ to this challenge too because I think with his support and a little friendly competition we can push each other to the end! We have agreed to focus on each section of the challenge...I will focus on the meals and Dan is going to focus on our workout program. Together we should be able to help each other and really do this challenge right! So the moral of this story is not to freak out about the fat clothes fitting but to look forward to the challenge and get into the right state of mind to complete it and win 1 MILLION dollars (in doctor evil voice). Muu-haha!!

Well it's a sad state of affairs...I haven't really been able to keep myself from endulging in the festive treats for the Holidays. I have 10 days before starting the challenge. I want to get a folder set up for my workout log and meal log. I want to get my metabolism reaved up too. I think Dan is going to join me in this challenge and that is exciting. We will eat drink and be Merry for Christmas and New Years and the hammer will fall January 2nd.

I need to get in the right state of mind too - I need to be able to stay focused on my goals. I need clear set goals. I also need some life goals aside from my fittness goals.

I want to fit in my Harley jeans.
I want to be toned and lean.
I want to feel good about myself.
I want to see myself as sexy.
I want to show my horse this year and do more trail riding.
I want to treat my husband better than he's ever been treated.

Just a few things swirling in that crazy brain of mine. I really want to stay focused. I am not going to stop my workouts at this point because it will just make it harder for me to start back but they aren't going to be terribly intense.

I need to the strength and willpower to make it for 12 weeks. I haven't been able to do that and I want to do it! Keep my chin up and get 'er done!!!

Well I'd have to say that this weekend was a pathetic example of any discipline I might have in my body. I don't want to be too hard on myself because it's not January 2nd when the discipline really counts but I don't want to be wearing my fat clothes the week before Christmas either. I have decided to do the vegetable diet during the week and the next two weekends are for anything I want. Guess that's why I feel this weekend was so bad.

Need to get my notebook going for the gym...so much to do these days that it's hard to keep up and I think the stress doesn't help. Not sure the 10 hour days at work are the way to go but I want to give them the chance. I haven't seen my horses for days until today and I don't like that. Going to try to cope with the stress and pour myself into my workout program come January. Want to show in the summer and I want to look good doing it!

My willpower is horrible these days...I can't even be good for 2 weeks in a row!!! What makes me think I'm going to be able to complete 12 weeks of Body For Life...because I have to! I want to look good for Myrtle Beach and I want to feel great about myself!!

Going to stick to my plan...not going to feel the failure at this time - I am going to relax about it and enjoy my Holidays - keep my workouts going and enjoy life until the hammer falls on January 2nd!! Ha,ha!

Wish me luck but I hope to get very lean and approach 127lbs!

Go ME!

Well I did the vegetable cleanse last week and am down to 135lbs - a lot more acceptable! However, I am still going to do the BFL come January. I want to be very lean and hot when we head to Myrtle Beach next Spring. :-) My workouts are going pretty good - I need to stay focused.

I will need to stay away from the Holiday sweets but I am not going to be too strict starting the week of Christmas. This week I will continue the vegetables but will have a few cookies here and there. I want to keep my weight down but I want to enjoy my Holidays too.

January 2nd is my focus - BFL 2007 will launch off and I will get very lean and hot!!

So that's the plan - I want to get Dan to help me with my planned workouts so I don't end up doing the same things over and over. I also want to make sure I 've got my meals correct. :-) Gonna do it!! Getting geared up!!!